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Chapter 479. The will to survive

Chapter 479. The will to survive

「 “Is this the only life left for me?” That isn’t the question 」

I tell Yukino

「 If you have time to think about that then put some effort on living 」

Yeah.

「 Yukino always tries to take it easy. You still think that someone will come and help you, and everything will go well. No, you desperately convince yourself. Therefore! 」

I say it all to the dumbfounded Yukino.

「 Even at this very moment, you’re still clinging to me 」

Yukino

「 But, I don’t know what I should do! 」

Tears fall from her big eyes.

「 I don’t want to die! I definitely don’t want to die! That’s all I feel!! 」

Yukino shots at me.

「 That’s why you go and rape me! I’ll do anything! I’ll listen to any orders! I don’t want to die you know!!!! I’ll let you rape me as much as you want!!! 」

That’s not it.

「 Like I said, Yukino can’t get me erect!!! 」
「 Why?!! 」

I

「 Rape isn’t that fun in reality 」

I speak out my honest thoughts.

「 It’s not interesting to force the other party, having sex with them against their will! 」
「 Are you really saying that even though you raped me a lot?! 」

Yukino screams.

「 Yeah, back then I liked Yukino. I wanted to have sex with you no matter how before. I didn’t want others to embrace you! 」
「 Then! 」
「 But, I no longer like you! Not a woman with such a horrible character as you!!! 」
「 What did you say?!! 」

Yukino’s enraged.

「 I can’t get erect for you because of precisely that!!! 」

I assert the high-tension Yukino.

「 Guh! 」

Yukino’s taken aback.

「 Look, nobody’s going to be on your side if you have that personality. You’ll stay alone no matter how long time passes 」
「 Shut up, leave me alone! 」

Yukino turns away.

「 Yeah, I will. Well then, Yukino said she’s okay to die here 」
「 Kuu!!!! 」

Yukino sends me a hateful gaze.

「 Didn’t I say I don’t want to die?!!! 」
「 Then think a bit more seriously!! You were on the brink of death a long time ago!!! 」

I

「 Yukino, this will be your last opportunity whether you cry or laugh. I will never come to help you. Right now, I’m a member of Kuromori. I have a lot of women I treasure their lives more than myself 」

Yukino looks at me.

「 You’re talking about Megumi? 」
「 Not just Megumi, Nei, Mana, Katsuko-nee, Nagisa, Agnes, Misuzu, Ruriko, Michi, Rei-chan, and even Edie are all girls I have to consider. Mao-chan too. Shou-oneesan, Margo-san, Kyouko-san are my family also. Miss Cordelia and her friends are friends. I have to do something about Jii-chan and Yoshiko-san also. And above all 」1

I

「 Minaho-neesan! I’m most worried about Minaho-neesan now!!! 」

Minaho-neesan’s surprised.

「 Me? 」
「 That’s right, Minaho-neesan’s still wavering. You showed us a face that you were convinced but you’re still hesitating, right? 」

Once this revenge is over.
Whether she should die or live.

「 Well, of course, MInaho-neesan’s been thinking about her revenge on Shirasaka Sousuke for over ten years. She hasn’t thought of what to do after the revenge! 」

Minaho-neesan gasps.

「 Minaho-neesan’s heart is still shaking, that’s why I want to tie it to the direction of the living 」

Yukino.

「 What the hell?! Are you saying that Yuzuki’s much more important than me?!!! 」

Yukino still calls Minaho-neesan “Yuzuki.”

「 Obviously! Minaho-neesan is my family! My sister! I’ll protect her with my life!! 」

I said.

「 Family?! Why is Yuzuki your family?!! 」

Yukino will never understand.

「 You can’t become my family because you don’t get even that. Whatever happens, you’ll be alone, you’ll never be able to join Kuromori family, therefore!!! 」

Tears accumulate in my eyes.

「 This is how far Yukino goes. I can’t help you! 」

Yukino listens to what I say dumbfounded.

「 I will not help you. You can never become my family! Even if I abandon Yukino, I have a family to protect!! 」

Yukino.

「 Then what’s going to happen to me? 」

That’s just…

「 I’m going to die here? 」

As if I know that.

「 You’ll abandon me, and I die? 」

But.

「 Live, Yukino! If you do, you won’t have anything. So live! 」
「 Then help me out! Save me! 」

Yukino.

「 Don’t ask for other people’s help! Live with your own power! Don’t think you can live without making any effort! 」
「 Even if you say that, what should I do?! 」
「 Think desperately! Do anything to live! Yukino, do your best! Yukino! 」

I

「 I won’t help you anymore! You have to live on your own! 」
「 But, I don’t know what I should do! 」

Yukino cries.

「 Think about it again, understand your situation now If this goes on, if you don’t do anything, you will die! 」
「 I know that even if you don’t tell me! 」
「 Then think to avoid death! So you may live!! 」

I keep on slapping Yukino the word “live.”

「 Yukino-san, do you still remember that I’m your homeroom teacher? 」

Suddenly, MInaho-neesan speaks.

「 I do, there’s no way I would forget 」

Yukino just called Minaho-neesan “Yuzuki” earlier. It’s the name she uses as the teacher in school.

「 Then, let me give you a hint as I am your homeroom teacher 」
「 Hint? 」
「 Yes, this will be my first and last guidance counseling to you 」

Minaho-neesan, what are you planning?

「 You have been watching the events that happen so far in a different room, haven’t you? 」
「 Yes, I was watching 」
「 To tell you the truth, I didn’t expect that this revenge would be this heavy 」

Minaho-neesan said.

「 I have planned this revenge for my own, it’s a plan for only me. I thought that it was okay to let Katsuko, Nagisa, and the other women in the mansion join in my plan just to avenge myself. I thought that the women who had a grudge against Shirasaka Sousuke will feel cleared up when they see this revenge 」

Yeah, MInaho-neesan’s the mastermind of this revenge, Katsuko-nee and we are the accomplices.
The former prostitutes watching the broadcast are just secondary.
Thinking that it might be good to erase the trauma in their heart as they watch Shirasaka Sousuke punished.

「 But, when you start the revenge, it’s heavy. This isn’t a right way to deal with my personal feelings. As expected, it’s only this much. We have to hurt Shirasaka Sousuke and fulfill all of the prostitutes’ feelings. It’s not just for the women who were in the mansion before watching this broadcast now 」

Minaho-neesan?

「 This isn’t just the thought of those that survived, but also for those women who died because of Shirasaka Sousuke, Megumi’s mother, Keiko-san, my sister, Naomi, no, that’s not all. A lot more women have been killed in this mansion. We have to clear up the resentment for those who died!!! 」

That’s right.
That’s definitely right.

「 The regrets of those who died and the hate of those who survived is swirling in this room. Do you understand, Yukino-san? 」

Yukino just trembles.

「 We intend to save Maika-san. If Kyouko-san and I face the camera and say “We’ll be sparing Maika-san,” we thought that would be the end of it. But, it didn’t go that way. The thoughts surrounding this room whispers “Kill Shirasaka Sousuke’s daughter” 」

Oh, even if we spare her.
Someone from the former prostitutes will have the atmosphere of assassinating Maika.

「 Fortunately, unlike you, Maika-san can perceive the atmosphere around her. Therefore, Maika-san dropped into a sex slave voluntarily. She kneeled and begged just so she may live. That girl showed that she has the will to do anything to survive, that’s why the atmosphere changed. Maika-san’s now recognized as our ally. Nobody will hurt her, she’s my brother’s faithful sex slave 」
「 That’s just merely for form’s sake. Aren’t those just words? 」

Yukino said.

「 No, Maika-san will never betray us. We have the confidence to say that. That girl has sworn to throw away all her past with Shirasaka house and live the rest of her life as a sex slave 」
「 What meaning does that life have?! 」

Yukino replies while trembling.

「 She has no future now that she’s this man’s sex slave!! Maika’s just 14! She’s a child! She didn’t experience love yet! 」

Minaho-neesan.

「 It’s much better than dying here, isn’t it? 」
「 But! 」
「 You don’t get it? We’re all the same, your father turned me into a prostitute when I was 12. I was a child. Of course, I didn’t experience love either 」
「 Maika’s different from you people!! 」
「 Why? It’s the same, equal. When Maika-san asserts that she’s a sex slave, she became an equivalent existence to us 」

Prostitute. Sex slave.
She fell to a similar position that is why Mana was spared.

「 No, no, no!!!! We’re daughters of Shirasaka house! We’re different from you!! 」

Yukino screams as she cries.

「 I see, it’s different. Then die, if you live in the same world as your father, then we won’t go easy on you! 」

Minaho-neesan said.

「 Well, it’s inevitable. They say that idiots get fixed when they die, but in reality, even death doesn’t fix them 」

Kyouko-san takes a karate stance.

「 Go and die slowly! 」
「 Why, why does it come to this! What did I do to you! I have nothing to do with whatever Papa did!! I didn’t do anything to deserve to die! I didn’t do anything wrong!! 」

Yukino snapped, she cries and screams.

「 Yes, we too. We didn’t do anything, and yet Shirasaka Sousuke tormented us. We didn’t do anything wrong, and yet, people died. My sister, Naomi died!! 」

This is bad.
This can’t go on.
If this continues.
Yukino. Yukino’s going to be killed.

「 Wait a second! Wait! Minaho-neesan, Kyouko-san!!! 」

I said.

「 Yukino, you’re a genius when it comes to irritating people 」
「 W-What? 」
「 Even though Minaho-neesan gave you a hint to not get you killed. You just got Minaho-neesan even angrier and drove yourself to the corner 」

I said. Yukino.

「 I didn’t 」
「 Just shut up, the more you talk, the more likely you die 」
「 Uuuugh 」

I look at Minaho-neesan.

「 I understood one thing from what Minaho-neesan said. 」
「 What? 」

Minaho-neesan shows a puzzled face.

「 Minaho-neesan, no, Katsuko-nee, Nagisa, then, Iwakura-san too, Yuuka-san, Hidemi-san, Tamayo-san, even the ladies of the mansion I haven’t met yet are all like that, but 」

I look at the camera.
I have to speak to all the former prostitutes.

「 Everyone has a strong heart. The will to live, the determination to survive is strong 」

Yeah, all of these ladies are filled with life.

「 I’ve been thinking about why 」

I have to put it into words.

「 Everyone survived. That’s why I think you’re strong 」

Yeah

「 What do you mean? 」

Minaho-neesan tells me as she shows a surprised face.

「 This man, Shirasaka Sousuke kidnapped and turned everyone to a prostitute, right? Then, you had horrible experiences, those mentally weak were unable to hold out 」
「 That’s right, there were a lot of girls who committed suicide and became mentally crazy 」

Minaho-neesan said.

「 It’s not just the mind but the body too. .Shirasaka Sousuke and his perverted friends made a lot of weak girls die 」

Minaho-neesan looks at Shirasaka Sousuke.
Shiraska’s been silent since earlier.
He feels that the situation won’t change no matter how much he screams.

「 Yes, that is true. Therefore, I think that Minaho-neesan and the ladies watching this broadcast are great. After all, you survived 」
「 You? 」
「 There’s a lot who’s mentally weak and lacking the physical strength that died, right? But, you ladies have survived. You worked hard and endured, “I won’t die, like hell I would die,” you continued to fight every day of hell with your strength to survive, didn’t you? 」

I said. Nagisa;

「 That’s right, it is as you say. No matter how painful it was, I was thinking “I won’t die.” That I will get out of this mansion alive. I was desperate everyday 」
「 Yes, I’m the same. I did my best to serve my guest to survive. If I become a woman who can earn, and if I make connections with guests with social position, Shirasaka Sousuke won’t be able to do anything unreasonable to me. I did anything thinking that. I’ve enticed whoever my guest is, I have to do it to survive after all 」

Katsuko-nee said.

「 That’s right, that’s why Katsuko and I didn’t die. There was no other way to survive but to be strong. We can do nothing but acquire the strength to live 」
「 Nagisa, you were studying how to manage a shop since you were a prostitute to gain the strength to live, right? 」
「 That’s right. Indeed it was useful, there’s a lot of case where I used my connections during the prostitute era. I don’t want to recall the prostitute era, the age of hell, but I used all everything I learned during that era 」
「 Yes, even if it was a nightmare, it wasn’t in vain 」

Nagisa said, Katsuko-nee nods.

「 I think that all of the former prostitutes who now have their own work are the same 」
「 We had no choice but to become strong 」

That’s right.

「 Those who survived are strong. You have no other choice but to be strong. Because you became strong, you survived, am I wrong? 」

Even if they became prostitutes, those who survived can’t be weak.

「 I 」

Minaho-neesan looks at her own hand.

「 That’s right, Minaho-neesan has a slightly different position than the other ladies 」

I tell Minaho-neesan.

「 Minaho-neesan had to retire from prostitution at a young age. As you were a descendant of Kuromori house, you remained in this mansion as an operator. You were stubborn to take revenge on Shirasaka Sousuke, but, you didn’t have the dream of surviving, leaving the mansion, and living a normal life 」

Minaho-neesan’s enthusiasm, her box in Kuromori, was only to defeat Shirasaka Sousuke.

「 Katsuko-nee wanted to make a bakery after retiring as a prostitute, so you continued to research on making bread, Nagisa intends to start a flower shop. Both of you had dreams of getting out of the prostitution world. A dream to be happy on a different place not here 」
「 That’s true, I never thought of anything but revenge. I never imagined getting out of this mansion after the revenge 」

Minaho-neesan speaks in pain.

「 No, Minaho-san helped us 」

Nagisa said.

「 That’s right, Ojou-sama, you’ve worked hard to improve the treatment of the prostitutes. A lot of ladies who are alive now were thanks to Ojou-sama’s efforts! 」
「 Minaho-neesan saved me when my heart was still weak! 」
「 Nagisa? 」
「 Do you remember? When Shirasaka Sousuke pressed the perverted guests on me, you said “This girl has the potential to be the biggest earner in the future,” then several of the perverted plays become banned 」
「 Un, if Ojou-sama didn’t work it out back then, Nagisa’s body would be filled with wounds 」
「 That guest was a pervert delighted to see a woman’s blood 」
「 If Nagisa’s body was scarred back then, I think that she won’t be getting good guests afterward 」
「 Or perhaps should I say that my mind would be broken Maybe. There was a girl who had her butt torn, and bones were broken from that guest 」
「 Yes, if it was us who just became a prostitute, we won’t be able to handle that very well 」

So that thing happened too.

「 Minaho-san has become strong too. Strong enough to protect us, prostitutes, 」
「 As you oppose Shirasaka Sousuke, you did everything possible to have all of us treated better, so we won’t be crushed down 」
「 That’s right, Minaho-san had gained the power to fight on equal status with Shirasaka Sousuke before anyone noticed 」

The girl who was once turned to a prostitute because of Shirasaka gained the power to become the representative of Kuromori and drive away Shirasaka Sousuke’s faction.

「 I obtained the power of the devil to fight the devil. That’s all there is to it 」

Minaho-neesan said.

「 But still, Minaho-neesan has gotten stronger. You’ve become strong-willed in this mansion 」

Minaho-neesan;

「 Well, I think that you are saying is correct. I also have become stronger from surviving this hell. I think that’s for sure 」

I smile on purpose.

「 Un, that’s right. Perhaps, that’s why I will daringly tell Minaho-neesan this 」

Minaho-neesan’s taken aback.

「 It doesn’t matter if it’s Minaho-neesan or the former prostitutes who throw their hatred to Shirasaka Sousuke. But, I think that it’s wrong to include the feelings of the dead people on your own accord 」
「 W-What are you talking about? 」

I look straight at Minaho-neesan.

「 Megu’s late mother, Naomi-san, they don’t wish for Shirasaka Sousuke’s daughter to die. They don’t want to to take away the beloved family’s family in exchange for them 」
「 What are you talking about?! 」
「 Their hearts aren’t that strong! 」

I

「 Those who can’t feel satisfied unless they take away the lives of Shirasaka Sousuke’s family are those who survived the hell, those who achieved a strong will to live! 」

They have strong hearts, so they want to give the same suffering they had to the other.
They are ready to do no matter how frightening it is.

「 Those who took Shirasaka Sousuke in Australia, who kept attacking him till present, who made Shirasaka house collapse, who socially murdered Shirasaka Sousuke and his family, is Minaho-neesan and everyone. That’s because you’re all strong. You’re all people who have achieved the strength to survive strongly. That’s why you can accomplish this revenge with this tremendous momentum.

Yes, Minaho-neesan’s revenge is excessive.
It’s too much on everything.
She’s become so strong that she won’t feel satisfied if she doesn’t go this far.
Minaho-neesan’s heart won’t be accepting something half-baked.

「 But, that’s because Minaho-neesan has a strong heart. Minaho-neesan has gotten this far, but those who died don’t wish for this. Even before that, they’re not thinking of achieving revenge on Shirasaka Sousuke 」
「 !!! 」
「 Surely, their minds are filled with just the emotion of wanting to get out of the hell, don’t they? Or 」

Minaho-neesan’s puzzled.

「 If it was Megu’s mother, she’s worried about Megu she left behind. Naomi-san too, she must be concerned about Minaho-neesan 」
「 Naomi 」
「 Those who aren’t strong hearted can only think that. They can’t think of revenge unless they’re people with a strong will to survive 」

I’m not talking about just Minaho-neesan.
The former prostitutes on the other side of the broadcast as well.
Those people, they all survived.
They’re people with strong hearts.
Their hearts are too strong that they seek for more.
They think that they also have to take away Mana and Yukino’s life, Shirasaka Sousuke’s family
First, I have to point that out.

「 Now then, Yukino, it’s about you 」

I look at Yukino

「 W-What? 」

Yukino in her underwear trembles.

「 It is as you heard just now, the people watching us all survived. Even if they were turned to prostitutes by your father, they desperately did anything to live. They responded to any desires of the men, they grit their teeth, wanting to show that they would definitely get over this difficulty 」
「 What about it!!! 」

Yukino shouts

「 Those kind of people are watching. Everyone had to clench their teeth to survive the crisis, then nobody wants to save you!! 」
「 Hey, I don’t get what that meant!! 」
「 You still don’t get it?!! 」

I push Yukino aside.

「 I told you that I can’t get erect with you, didn’t I? 」
「 So what? 」
「 Then make it erect 」

Yukino’s surprised.

「 If you make me erect, I’ll thrust inside and ejaculate. Use your body and soul to make me feel good 」
「 Why do I have to? 」
「 That’s what the prostitutes of this mansion experienced! They desperately flirt with men, sell their body, no, they sell their souls! 」
「 I don’t want to! 」
「 Then die! Hurry up and die! 」
「 I don’t want to die either!!! 」

I
I slap Yukino with all my strength.

Bashin!!!

「 W-What are you doing? 」
「 Are you going to die without doing anything! If this goes on, you’ll really just die!! 」

I speak sharply

「 If you don’t want to die then live by yourself. Gain the strength to survive, show that you have the strong will to live, and survive no matter what happens!! 」

Yukino’s listening to what I’m saying.

「 Swallow all the humiliation, anger, hatred you’re feeling right now and show it outside. Everyone’s your enemy here! If you show weakness then you’re just wishing to die!! 」
「 What are you talking about!?! 」
「 If it’s to survive then sell favors to your enemy. Do anything. It’s obvious that you have to give out your body. That’s much better than dying!! 」
「 What are you talking about! 」
「 Move on your own! Nobody’s coming to save you! Carve your path to life! Yukino!!! 」
「 What’s with you?! 」

Yukino cries again

「 You don’t have the time to cry! If you have that much time, then move! 」

After my shout, Megu speaks up.

「 That’s enough, Yoshi-kun. Yukino doesn’t understand Yoshi-kun’s feelings at all 」

The room quiets down.
Then.

「 I know! 」

Yukino wipes away her tears.

「 You…why…no…fine 」

Yukino slaps her cheeks with both hands.
She motivates herself.

「 I just have to sell myself right? 」

Yukino said.

「 I just have to make you feel good, right? 」
「 Yeah 」

I replied.

「 I get it, I’ll do it. I’ll sell with my life in line 」

Yukino.

「 I’ll sell my body and mind to you in exchange for my life!! 」

Yukino’s eyes are filled with vitality.
Yukino decided to survive alone.

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